Dear You,
I captured you today. I'd have to admit that you caught me way off guard today. I ran, not because I didn't want to see you, but because I felt that it was the right thing to do.
In some ways, I feel like my feelings for you is like a roll of film. If I expose my secret love for you, it will destroy me and the good memories in me. However, if I never take it out of the camera, I will only keep my feelings to myself and lay there, unused. You are confusing me again and I allow myself to be rattled by you.
I am trapped in that little container, no way out. I will never be developed nor produce those wonderful pictures and memories I have. I want to become something else.
Maybe I want something different. Maybe I want someone who will actually help me develop. Maybe I want someone who will listen to me and not interrupt me when I'm speaking. Maybe I want to be asked how my day was as opposed to it being you all the time.
Maybe I want to be cared for as much as I care for you.
Janine
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